pero what makes me nervous today is not actually the defense though actually im really nervous before it started..heeh…but when it started all the nervousness fade away..hehe..

so back to the stupid nervousness, i’m nervous about something..something that troubles my mind for a long period of time.. it was him..the guy…named Argel..

yeah..it was him..im planning to tell him now.. that i love him..but soemthings really bugging me..im doubting about my own feelings..if i do really love him..or am i just looking for someone who will listen to my stories and tantrums..but most of all i needed someone who will make me smile ..who will tell me everything will be alright if i am down..huhu..most of all i just needed someone to take care of me and love me for who i am..

yes..i really dont know if he could love me back because..that would be quite impossible..even if he knew..i felt that somethings wrong..but i do really love him..a lot..

i just hope that he could love me for who i am and even though he could’nt love me.. he’ll just stay the way he is and be by side even though were just friends..i think its more than enough..

thats..all..i couldnt ask for more..