I always wonder why people fall in love with the person exactly their opposite or they see their selves in that person. Or sometimes, they fall for people who don’t seem to care for them at all.

Is it just because, it’s just the rule of love? You have to fight hard and struggle to be happy? That it is necessary that you need to feel sorrow to have your bliss?

And sometimes I asked myself, why do we even fall in love in the first place?

I always want to ignore that feeling. The feeling of falling for someone, the feeling of being happy just to be on his side, and much worst contented just to be his shadow.

I don’t know when I fell in love, it just so happens that when I wake up one morning, I realized that I’m in love with him. Sounds lunatic right? I know, but I can’t just ignore the fact that I want to see him, to speak to him, to see his face and his smile. Much that I want to cast the feeling away, it’s just there. I can’t do anything.

I want to tell him I love him but the truth is that I’m not afraid of his answer. I’m afraid of my own decision, on my own guts, and I want to ask myself, where does my feeling stand? Will my heart lead me to the right door? Do I really love him?

I have plenty of questions I want to ask myself but theres nothing I could do, except to accept the fact that I have fallen in love with someone whom I don’t know if he could love me too.